Loving Our Younger Selves

It was cold and overcast on our daughter’s Gotcha Day. We drove away from the adoption agency in a small, navy blue van with another adoptive family. Our little girl rode on my lap, still unaware of what was happening. She went from playing with the new toys we’d given her to looking up at … Continue reading Loving Our Younger Selves

Cut Open

Our colorful nativity set was placed on a table beside our box TV that year. We were weeks away from welcoming our first child and I was overcome with anxiety about giving birth. Just days before Christmas, my husband and I wrote our biggest-fears-turned-biggest-prayers onto ripped-up printer paper and laid them before the baby Jesus’ … Continue reading Cut Open

How Much Can A Heart Really Hold?

I remember the first time I read it. I was in college and at a friend’s house. She and some other friends and I went to get something out of her room and covering the walnut brown door a poster said this: “Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold.” … Continue reading How Much Can A Heart Really Hold?

Making My Own Kimchi

When God formed my limbs, shaped my eyes and decided to give me my mother’s dark, thick hair, through her: he fed me kimchi. Aside from being a non-negotiable side dish to every meal at our dinner table, kimchi accompanied the stories I grew up hearing. The first time my imagination held a picture of my mom as … Continue reading Making My Own Kimchi

Moving Towards Different: My Reconciliation Call

My Existence: Formerly Against the Law 50 years ago, the country I was born in had laws in place to prevent my birth. With a righteous-sounding title like "The Racial Integrity Act," racism was formalized and normalized in the United States of America, and up until 1967 there were still 15 states that had anti-miscegenation laws. Miscegenation means, "the … Continue reading Moving Towards Different: My Reconciliation Call